Wednesday, December 22, 2010

16 weeks...and a MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL!

Well I'm 16 weeks today!!

 I swear, time is flying by....feels weird to say 16 weeks...

Really nothing new this week...still having bouts of morning sickness...but NOT nearly as bad as it once was, so I'm very thankful!!

Belly is def getting rounder....

hmm..I can't really think of anything else to add...everything is just about the same as last week..

BUT I do want to add:
I hope all you beautiful mommy to be's have a fabulous Holiday!!
We are so very blessed! :)

Merry Christmas everyone!! May your day be filled with Joy and love!!

<3 TashaK

Friday, December 17, 2010


Just thought I'd ramble about some stuff the doctor said when I went Wednesday...

I have a anterior placenta...meaning the placenta is on the 'belly' side(front) rather than posterior 'spine side(back)...which makes sense considering, I haven't felt the baby move yet (placenta is acting as a 'buffer or cushion' as the doctor said) so it's absorbing all the kicks and squirms...which also explains why my doctor can never find the baby's heartbeat on a doppler (as all she can hear is the 'swooshing' of the placenta and my heartbeat) which this is all FINE by me, that means I get to have ultrasounds to check if bubbs is okay! :D

Another thing she was talking to me about is the QUAD SCREENING...Which is a blood test they do to see if you are high risk of baby having Down Syndrome or Spinal Bifida(spelling?)..
The test is optional, you don't have to have it done, but it is done at 16-18 wks...

It gives you a 1:750 of having a Down Syndrome baby....just an example..

I personally chose not to have this done, she said there are alot of false positives that come with this test, I don't want to get a false positive and worry and stress out about it..I am going to love my baby regardless of whether it has some kind of defect or chromosonal deformity...

So I chose not to have it done...My husband was very much in agreement with me on this..

She said I should have nothing to worry about, considering I have no family history, or any warning signs with all of the ultrasounds I have had done...(even though this doesn't mean that it WON'T happen)

I'm not to worried about it too much though, like I said, I will love my baby regardless if something is wrong with's my child...LOVE is uncondiotional! 

And I'm going to give the whole story on the 'gender' thing I posted on my 15 weeks post....

I went and had the u/s cause the doctor could not find the heartbeat...
unfortunatley, the baby was laying face down, so we could not get a good profile shot of the baby...while we were patiently waiting on baby to turn over, she scans down to the 'bottom' area....

I hear her go "hmmmm..."  and I said "what do you see?" lol I knew what she was looking at, and I could tell she could see 'something' 

She said" okay, so, hypethetically, if I could tell you the gender, would you want to know..?" 
Of course, I was like "YESSSSS"..haha..

So she continues looking at differnt angles and trying to get a 'good money shot'...when she pauses the screen and shows me the baby's legs, one on each side, then she shows this thing in the middle...she said I'm 95% sure it's a boy...but it is still pretty early, and that 'could' be the umbilical cord stump(where it goes into the belly) and for me not to go buy blue yet...but she is pretty positive that it is a boy...
I agree with her...100%...I think, no, I know it's a boy!!

So we go back January 12th for the final say!! I can't wait!! I'm sooo excited!! :)

Wednesday, December 15, 2010


Ok girlies!!! I am so excited to write this honestly have no idea!!!

I went to the doctor for my 15 week checkup...

Everything looked good...she went to check the baby's hearbeat...and what do you know, she couldn't find it...AGAIN!!

So off to ultrasound I go!!......

Get in ultrasound, and baby is fine, heartrate at 150bpm!!
baby was laying face down, so we were trying to get baby to roll over so we could get a good profile we were trying to get him/her to roll over, she scans down toward the bottom, just looking...when she asks "If I could tell you the gender, would you want to know?" and of course, I am like " YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS" haha so she looks for about 10 mins, getting different angles and such...

When she says, I am 95% sure it's a BOY!! ahhh!!!
She told me not to go out and buy blue yet, cause it's still early, but she is pretty positive!!

I've had a gut feeling the entire time it was a boy!! SUPER EXCITED for January 12th to know FOR SURE!!

I am so excited!! I seen the "bits" and I know it's a boy..I just know it!! :D

PICS FROM TODAY(only face pics)

looks like a little alien baby!! haha

15 week bump!!

I was sucking in!! look at that bump!! Practically popped up overnight!! I love it!!

Another view!! Isn't it awesome!!! (dont cha love my purple polka dot pants haha)

I woke up this morning and rubbed my belly (saying goodmorning to buggy) when I felt it was hard as a rock and poking out like that!! I was like WOAH!! It def. grew overnight!! haha :)

Will update 15 weeks after I get back from the doctor!! :)

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Week 14!!

WOW!! I can't believe I am 14 weeks!!! Time is surely flying!!

Symptoms this week:
Little bit of morning sickness...(no vomiting, just nausea) YIPPIE! :)
Severe lower back hurts soo bad...esp. at night when I lay down..
heartburn..ugh..seems when the morning sickness ended, the heartburn started!! it truly sucks..I'm not much for taking Tums or Rolaids..( eating chalk..) so I just try to bear it...usually a glass of milk coats my throat and makes it better...

Thats pretty much it for symptoms...
I have been having alot of problems getting comfortable at seems I just toss and turn all night...The only way I can get to lay on my side(usually right side, I hear left side is better though) and put a pillow between my knees, have a pillow under my head and a pillow along the side of me(snuggling purposes really, since hubbs is out of town) seems to have worked last night...

Also, I do believe I have been feeling buggy only really happens at night when I lay down and relax...I feel sort of popping bubble sensation..(reminds me alot of when I was pregnant with Haeleigh) so I'm figuring it's little buggy poking his/her mommy hello!! :)

**I will upload a 14 week picture when I get the chance...I usually take it with my phone and upload it to face book first, then save and upload soon as I get a chance, I'll let you see my growing little bump!! **


Monday, December 6, 2010


So for the past 4 days I have had NO MORNING SICKNESS!! woo....

BUUUUTTTTT....Tonight, we went and ate at my in-laws, had pork chops, peas, corn and mashed potatoes...yummo!!

So we ate, and came back home...I was drinking a glass of sweet tea when I accidentaly got a small piece of ice...i started coughing....and what do ya comes throw up...and alot of it...(so glad I acted fast, or the laptop would of gotten covered...).omg..

So here we are 2 hours later and I've thrown up 6 times...omg...I guess all it took was 1 throw up, before morning sickness kicked back in...seriously?!?!

I was so excited to feel normal again...enjoying it!! and now the mean vicious cycle has started again...ugh..I give up...


Friday, December 3, 2010


I went back to the doctor this morning...and everything looks good...I'm no longer dehydrated...THANK GOODNESS!! I go back again in 2 hopefully I wont get dehydrated before then....fingers crossed!! :)

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

MAJOR scare today :(

I went to the doctor today for my normal routine 13 week was anything but normal....

She went to find the baby's heartbeat on the doppler, but there wasn't a heartbeat....she tried for 30 mins...and still no heartbeat.....I could tell she was freaking out...even though she was trying to hide it...I knew something wasn't right....

She then tells me that I have to go to the hospital to get a emergency ultrasound...So I am looking calm on the outside, but on the inside, I was a wreck!! Thinking the worst....(and to make it even more horrible, it is me and my husbands 4th wedding anniversary, I kept thinking how horrible it would be to learn you lost your baby on your anniversary....omg)

So I get to the hospital, and 45 mins later...I go into soon as she stuck that ultrasound thingy on my belly, I seen my baby kicking away....I have never cried so hard in my life!!! Just to see my baby, happy and healthy in there was the most amazing thing ever!! His/Her heartbeat was 164bpm..I also got some pics :)

There he/she is!!! looking soo incredably GORGEOUS!!

THEN...the doctor preceeds to tell me that I am severely dehydrated and will have to be admitted for 4 bags of fluid....great...This morning sickness is slowly but surely killing me :(

So I am finally back home after over 5 hours...I have to go back Friday for even more fluids...

Please pray for me and my bean....hoping this morning sickness goes away soon....

Monday, November 29, 2010

Mom approved....

As some of you may know..My daughter's hair is....well...CRAZY!!

She has some of the longest, thickest, craziest hair I have ever seen on a 3 year old....
I used to dread bathtime, knowing that I would have to fight with her to brush her was a battle...
she has the kind of hair that you can brush it and get all the tangles/knots out and as soon as her hair moves, it's full of tangles again....ugh...horrible...I resorted to putting her hair up in a bun all the time, just so we wouldn't have to fight with it every 10 mins...but then, I was like, If I'm just going to keep it up constantly, I might as well cut it off....NO NO NO!! I am not cutting my babies beautiful hair...everyone would KILL me!! haha (to get a idea on how long her hair is, we can tuck her hair into her

So we were at wal-mart  Saturday, in the shampoo Isle, getting me some shampoo/conditioner(because my husband just LOVES to use all of mine..grr) and I spotted the kids Suave section...I read over all the claims etc, and thought I would give it a try...

We bought the Suave 2-in-1 shampoo and conditioner in Wild Watermelon(which smells like heaven!) (pic below)

When I first used this, I could tell a difference RIGHT AWAY!! It made her hair so soft and smooth...I used to use baby shampoo(Johnson&Johnson) and it would leave her hair feeling dry and brittle....but this was totally different!! Just the way it lathered and was awesome!! (i'm kinda jealous..haha) I give this product at 10 out of 10!! It did everything it said..and MORE!! The smell is..well..amazing!! Just like watermelon...yumnm...Seriously want to eat it..haha

Then we bought, the Suave(for kids) Detangling spray..Double dutch apple is the scent..and it smells just like a sour green apple...yummo!!

This is what the bottle says... "Suave Kids Detangling Spray tames the toughest knots, bed-head and flyaways for less that the more expensive brands. This effective formula takes the trouble out of combing and enhances hair's natural softness and shine."

Okay, I read this and HAD to get it....My daughter's hair will be the perfect test!! I could not wait to get home and try this out!!
My thoughts: I love it!!! It does exactly as it says....I doesn't get rid of ALL the tangles, but I doubt any product will do that...I made hair brushing much much easier!! She still cried and said it hurt, but I know it really didn't...I can tell when I am brushing through a tangle...and I wasn't..haha

I love both of these products...They are cheap( $2.00 each I believe) they do what they are supposed to..I am in love with them, and won't use anything else on her hair!! :)

And for a pic of her hair....

Please, Please, PLEASE don't look at my messy living room!! It's a wreck!! haha but this is my baby girls look thin in the pic, but it's soooooooo not!! I wish you guys could just reach in the pic and feel how thick and soft her hair is...You would fall in love!! :)

So yeah, this is my "review" on these products!! I love them!! and I love her ^^^^^^ :)

Saturday, November 27, 2010

12 week pic.....

I forgot to add this to my 12 week post...oppsie...:/

It looks like fat hanging over my belly...(beer but it's def not...I didn't have any of this 12 weeks ago!! :) Really Wishing I would start "looking" pregnant...instead of just looking like I need to hit the

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

What am I thankful for?

I wanted to go ahead and wish all of you a happy Thanksgiving!!! I know I won't be around my computer tomorrow...

So what am I thankful for?
  1. I am thankful for a loving husband, who loves me for me and doesn't try to change me...He loves me more than anything...I sometimes take for granted our love and what we have...But I am one lucky woman!! 
  2.  I am thankful for my children...I thank God everyday for my babies...Haeleigh, she made me a mother, she is so beautiful, so smart, and perfectly healthy.....My June-bug, he/she isn't here yet, but I'm so thankful I have gotten where I am with him/her...I can't wait to hold both my babies in my arms....'Dear Lord, thank you for my babies...'
  3. I am thankful for my family...I have a great family...I am a complete daddy's daddy means everything to me..Me and my dad are just alike, which sucks sometimes, we butt heads ALOT..But I love him with everything I have...He is an awesome dad and a awesome Paw-Paw...I couldn't ask for a better one...My mom...We have had our ups and downs..not really a close relationship there...but I am thankful for her...without her, I would not exist...without her, I would not of had alot of the things I had...she is a awesome grandmother to her grandkids....and everyone else in my HUGE family...I am so thankful for everyone...I would not be the person I am today without these people...they are my rock, my shoulder to cry on, my friends....I love my family so very much!!
  4. My life...I am healthy, I am happy, I am alive...This has to be the number one thing I am most thankful for...I wake up everyday...and just thank God that I am healthy and alive! But, yes, I sometimes take for granted that I am healthy...but I believe everyone does...But I am truly thankful...
  5. My job...I love being a stay-at-home mom...It is the best job in the world...I am so thankful that my husband has allowed me to live my dream...yes, it's hard with only one income...really hard...but to be honest, I would rather be broke and a stay at home mom than be rich and have someone basically raise my child...and we are BROKE but God will see us through, and I'm so thankful for everything God has given me..I might not go to church...but I do believe in God...and I am thankful in every single way...for everything in my life, even the bad, because I know, it will make me a better daughter, sister, wife and mother... :)

12 weeks!!!

I am 12 weeks today!! woo hoo!!!

One more week until I officially am in the 2nd Trimester!! (some ppl say 13 wks some say 14) I'm just going to say 13!! :D

I honestly cannot believe I am at 12 weeks already!! the past 4 weeks have FLOWN by!!

Just to think...8 more weeks and I find out if I'm having a baby boy or a baby girl!! yippie :)

Morning sickness is still pretty bad..ugh..I HAVE to eat something every 30 mins...if I do that, I feel okay...but eating something every 30 mins gets annoying...I mean..really annoying..

My boobs are back to being really sore again...I found this out yesterday when my baby girl gave me a BIG HUG....ouch!! and this might me TMI, but I have these bright blue veins showing on my bobbies looks rather odd..haha

Also having ligament pains again....everytime I sneeze, cough, laugh, move quickly, I get these sharp pains around my lower abdomen...I'm pretty positive it's my uterus growing and stretching...but still kinda freaks me out....

That's pretty much all for week 12!!
Hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving!! :)
Love, TashaK <3

Monday, November 22, 2010

Happy Birthday to me!!!

I'M 22!!! haha :)

Had a GREAT birthday today!! I felt nauseated ALL day but oh well...

  Went maternity clothes shopping today....and omgosh!! That stuff is expensive!! geeze...

I got 2 pair of maternity Jeans and 2 long sleeve shirts for $81.00!! I was like holy crap!! haha...
That might not be expensive to anyone else, but us country folk.(lmao) thinks thats insane!! haha

But I found my current addiction.....yupp yupp....SPREE hard candies...omg!! (I don't know if you know what I'm talking about..) but they are the BOMB! (my dad had a box in his truck...and I stole em!! haha)

I hope you all had a wonderful day!! I know I sure did!! :)

God Bless you all!!

Saturday, November 20, 2010

We picked bedding!!

We picked our bedding for the little one....

My husband picked out the boys...(he is a baseball player, so sports was a MUST..ha)

This is the NoJo My little MVP 6-piece bedding set...
It comes with:
Fitted Sheet
Dust Ruffle
Diaper Stacker...
It's $189.99...which is kinda steep(my opinion) but the hubbs said he doesn't

And I picked out the Girls room...(As soon as I seen it I fell in love with it!! I love ladybugs..FACT:My first tattoo was a ladybug..hehe)

This is the NoJo Ladybug Lullaby 6 piece crib bedding set...
It comes with:
Fitted Sheet
Fitted Sheet
Diaper Stacker...This one is $179.99...

So yepp these are our choices.....

Link to the My Little MVP Collection:

Link to the Ladybug Lullaby Collection:

Friday, November 19, 2010

Pregnancy Survey...

Are you still with him? YES..
Were you trying to get pregnant? YES..
When did you find out? SEPTEMBER 25TH 2010
Where did you find out? MY BATHROOM..LOL
How far along were you? 4 WEEKS
Who was the first person you told? MY HUBBY
How did you tell the father? I SAID "I'M PREGNANT" 
What was his reaction? SO EXCITED!.

When is your due date? JUNE 8TH 2011...(BUT I WILL HAVE BABY JUNE 1ST)
Did you have any morning sickness? YES! FROM 7 WEEKS AND STILL GOING STRONG...(11 WEEKS)
What are you most happy about? TO SEE MY BABY, AND JUST BEING A FAMILY OF 4!
What did the father want boy or girl? BOY
Do you know what your haveing? WE WILL FIND OUT JANUARY 19TH!
Do you have a name picked out? GIRL- ISABELLA BROOKE BOY-RYLAN MICHAEL
How much weight have you gained? NONE, LOST 4 LBS
Have you felt the baby move? NOPE..

Are you keeping the baby? WELL, UH, DUH..
Do you plan on a natural or medicated birth? WELL MEDICATED CONSIDERING I HAVE TO HAVE A C-SECTION..
Are you scared about labor? NO
What do you think will be the worst part of labor? I DONNO...PAIIN?
Have you taken any classes? NOT YET.
Who will be in the delivery room? WILLIAM
Are you having the birth videotaped? MAYBE..
Do you think you will cry when you see the baby for the first time?OF COURSE
What do you think the fathers reaction to the baby will be? HE WILL BE SO HAPPY!
How do you think family and friends will feel? BEYOND EXCITED!

Thanksgiving,Birthdays and morning sickness....

Hey beautiful ladies!! :)

So Monday(22nd) is my 22nd birthday!!  Oh yeah I'm turning 22 on the 22nd...haha Normally I am soo excited about my birthday...but this year...not so much...and I have no idea why...Maybe it's because I'll be 22...maybe it's because I know I'll feel like crap...who knows...BUT on the other hand...I am getting maternity clothes for my birthday...(which I'm so excited about) haha It's weird that I'm excited to buy "fat clothes"(not really "fat" but that's what I call them) but not excited about my birthday..

Thanksgiving is coming up..which is one of my favorite holiday's...Christmas is #1 :) BUT I'm dreading that also...Because I know I will feel all nauseated and not be able to eat any of the GREAT food...(dressing and cranberry sauce..omg my fav!!) I am also DREADING thanksgiving...We have to spend it with so much family...
#1-My mother-in-law and father-in-law and all of my husbands family..(who live next door)
#2-My dad and step-mother-who live 2 hours away..(long drive)
#3-My mom, stepdad,(who live 5 hours away and are driving up) and my brother and sister-in-law-who live an hour away..

It seems as if all we will be doing is driving on Thanksgiving(which will surely make my m/s worse....ugh..but you gotta do what ya gotta do...I guess...

I can't wait to see all my family though....Haven't seen them in a while(since I've been pregnant) that should be exciting :) 

RANDOM NOTE: Haeleigh is singing "I love you" the Barney song...haha so cute..when she is done singing, she bows and says "KANK YOU" haha soo freakin adorable.. :)


Thursday, November 18, 2010


Hey loves....

I'm sitting here watching Rugrats with my princess(has to be one of the best cartoons EVER!) And I am seriously bored out of my mind!! 

I just ate a chicken pot pie...yuk...but I'm trying different things to see if they agree with my tummy or not...I also took my Zophran...which seems not to work anymore...I have no idea why....The first 2 weeks it worked like a charm, but now it seems to make the sickness worse...Not to mention Zopharn are HELLA expensive...I got 6 pills which cost 173.00.....crazy right...yeah, I said 6 pills.AND they are the generic kind....Thank goodness my Insurance covered it...But I can only get 6 pills every month....yeah WTF? But I really have 12 doses, cause you have to take half a pill, but still....

I'm going to have to reschedule my doctors appointment tomorrow...which kinda sucks..but I was only going for them to check my urine to see if the anti-biotics were working for my UTI...I'm rescheduling because, I have a 3-year old that is deathly afraid of doctors offices....I honestly don't think I can deal with being sick on top of a screaming child...So I'm going to try to schedule it for a Wednesday..when my MIL is off work...It's so tough not having any family around that could watch her for a few hours...:/ I wish we had the money to put her in daycare..for purposes of her playing with kids and giving mommy a break...but I know that I would break down and cry when I dropped her off...

So yeah...thats my post for now....just a bunch of non-sense rambling.....

Talk to all you later! :)

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

We have decided the NAMES!!!!

So after many many disagreements on names....we have finally chosen our picks!!

sooo excited!! 

RYLAN-RYE MEADOW(Haeleigh's means "HAY MEADOW"..thought it was a nice way to join their names..weird?)
MICHAEL-WHO IS LIKE GOD(My daddy's middle name...he only has grand-daughters and daughters, figured we would name his first boy in the family after him!)

ISABELLA-GOD'S PROMISE(love the meaning)

So yepp! Those are our names...I'm super excited for 9 weeks to find out wheter it will be a Rylan Michael or a Isabella Brooke :)

11 weeks....

Is sooo amazed at how quickly this pregnancy is going now....I'm already 11 weeks!!! WOW! 
I found out I was pregnant at 10dpo...which has it's pro's/con's......

pro's--Well, duh, I'M PREGNANT!! haha
Con's--It's way early, and I had constant worry if something was wrong...:/

But after my u/s when I was 9 weeks(when I seen my little bug's heartbeat) everything is going way quicker...I guess cause it put my mind at ease :) 

Symptoms at 11 weeks:
Morning Sickness is at it's worse...*sigh*
Light Cramping at night(uterus stretching)
sore sore boobies...they are easing up though..

On the plus side of things....My hair and fingernails are growing like crazy!! My nails have never been this long and strong...they used to grow fairly quickly, but they were really fragile and cracked very easily...

Pic at 11 weeks :)

Another good note: I have 9 weeks until I find out whether we are having a boy/girl!!! I'm soo excited...:))

Haeleigh has been hugging/kissing my belly....and she keeps calling it her "baby sisser" she's convinced it's a girl...haha it's sooo cute :) She is going to be the best big sister ever...I can't wait for her to meet her brother/sister....I already know I am going to cry my eyes out when I see them meet for the first time...shoot, I'm crying just thinking about

I am getting really nervous about the C-section.....I have no idea why...I mean, I've been through it before...I guess I'm nervous about going into labor before June 1st...It's very unlikely, but still nervous about it...:/

Well, as much as I am dreading it(cause of morning sickness) I have to go make my little princess some lunch...=)

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Is soo over it!!!

Dear Morning Sickness,

            Hi...It's Tasha...I have something I need to say to you....GO TO HELL!! 
                                                                      Thanks, Tasha

This morning sickness is seriously about to kill me....I can't eat, can't drink, I can't even think about eating or drinking...the doctors gave me anti-nausea pills, but they don't freakin work!! AHHHH!! I want to scream...I want to lay in bed ALL day and sleep, because if I am asleep, I am NOT sick...BUUTT, I can't do that..I have a 3 year old who counts/depends on me...Having to make her lunch is the hardest part of my day....I can't even walk in my kitchen with out spewing...I will be 11 weeks tomorrow and my morning sickness is at it's they say, "it gets worse before it gets better"...well I don't like it!! I just want to eat...and drink...and go 5 mins without feeling like I'm going to blow...I know, I know..It will be all worth it in the end, and yes it will, but that doesn't make me feel better right NOW!! 

I can't even stand the smell of my husband anymore...either his body wash, deodorant or colonge(or all 3) drives me CRAZY!! YUK YUK YUK!! His feelings are hurt cause I don't cuddle or hug him anymore...he just doesn't realize that I seriously...CAN'T...I know it will get better but he doesn't seem to think so...bless his heart...

As the saying goes..."I am sick and tired of being sick and tired.." 

But thank God my hubby is off today, because Northern Mississippi decided to get 18mllion inches of rain(not literally, but close) so he had lunch duty today...but I know I'll have it tomorrow..:( It makes me feel sooooo bad that I dread making my daughter lunch...:'(

But my rant is all over now...feels as if I'm going to be sick....ugh.

Monday, November 15, 2010

Cribs...Cribs..and more Cribs!!!

Okay....well we have been looking at might be a little early? I donno...But buying baby stuff makes me HAPPY!! hehe

Crib Set #1...
Comes with Crib(Convertable)....Chest of drawers...Changing Table...and Hamper.. This is personally my Favorite out of the bunch!!

Crib Set #2
This one Comes with Crib, Changing Table, and 3 drawer dresser.....This one is " ehh okay" The only problem I have with it, is that dresser looks awfully small, plus not being any drawers in the Changing Table...maybe I'm just being too critical..?!?

Crib Set #3
This one, is my husband is in love with....(secretly, I think it's because the room is "blue" and he's hoping for a boy) haha But this one comes with Crib, Changing Table and 4 drawer dresser.'m torn...I still LOVE the 1st one...The hubby, not so much....jeeze, How hard is it to agree on a crib?! haha With our daughter, we had this is all new to us...haha

If you would like, comment and tell which one you like :)  All Cribs are found at Babies'R'Us.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Stuff I needed to get off my chest....pointless really...but from the heart...

So my first miracle is 3 years 2 months and 3 days old today..(but who's counting?lol)

I swear to you, time is just flying by.....I get soo sad thinking about how she will be starting pre-school soon after the baby comes...**cries and screams "it's not fair"**. She is soo smart and beautiful...I am so blessed...I love that little girl more than anything in this whole world! She is my reason for wanting to see tomorrow and for remembering yesterday! I never thought I could love someone as much as I do my husband...but I do...The weird thing is...It's a love you can't can't put into words how much you love your child...there aren't enough words in the english language...I am just so anxious and excited to see what kind of person she grows up to be, and the decisions/choices she decides to make...whatever her choices, I will stand behind her 100%. I just want her to be happy..I want her to know that no matter what people say, never lose the real Haeleigh, God made "YOU" the way you were supposed to be...never lose touch with that...she has the most incredable personality, and the most awesome sense of humor...always trying to make somebody laugh...and I LOVE that about her...I just hope she doesn't feel the need to change herself for acceptance...esp during middle/high school...It is tough...It was hard on me and I know in the years to come it will get even harder...I just hope she stays true to herself, but if she does stray the path, rest assured mommy will be there to bring her back...

Me and my mother never had a great relationship....she always tried to be my "friend" instead of my mother....I really needed a mom...I mean I love my mom to death..but there were critical points in my life where I wished she would have stepped up to the plate and just been a mother..I had pleanty of friends, I only have 1 mother...I know she feels guilty about it now, and I forgive her for it, but a little part of me still holds a small grudge...I know I shouldn't but It's how I feel and I can't change that...Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying she was a "bad" mother..NO! she was a great mother, when she accually "was" one..

I want me and Haeleigh to have what me and my mom never had...I will be her "friend" to an extent...but when I need to be a mother, you better believe I'm gonna be her mother...I feel as if I wouldn't of done some of the stupid things I did when I was a kid, if she had been there to give me advice or questioned where I was going..instead of just letting me do whatever I wanted...

I do not regret my daughter one bit, but I didn't finish High School b/c I was pregnant and got married at 18...I don't want her to look back at that and think she "ruined" my fact she did quite the opposite...she gave me a reason to live...I may not have a diploma, or my later teenage years to do what I wanted, worry-free...but I have the best gift of all, and that is her. I don't regret anything in my past...because what has happened to me has made me into the person I am today...I have made my fair share of mistakes and I openly admit that...but like I said it has made me a stronger, better person, mother and wife...

I know this is just pointless rambling...but I felt as if I needed it off my chest...sorry if I bored the living out of you..haha :)

My 10 week belly!!

Sooo...10 weeks...soo excited!!

My belly a 10 weeks..(starting to pooch out there quite a bit..hehe)

Morning Sickness at 10 weeks...hmm..well..IT SUCKS!! I did get some anti-nausea meds when I went to the doctor...but to be honest, they dont help at all!! yuk! So i'm just dealing with it day by day and hoping it gets better soon!

1st Doctor Appointment!!

On November 5th I had my 1st doctor appointment!! :D


This is my little June-Bug at 9 weeks 2 days!!!

Heartbeat was 179bpm!!  How cute is that^^??? if you look closely, you can see a arm and little finders on the side of his/her head!! soo cute!! :) I am soo in love!!

I did get a Pap-smear...which **OUCH** hurt like a *****!!! And I also have a UTI(Urinary Tract Infection) I had a constant one with my daughter, so the doctor is thinking I will have the same with this pregnancy..yuk! So I have to take anti-biotics every day for the WHOLE pregnancy!! eek! But better safe than sorry huh?!?!

I got back to the doctor November 19th...just to be sure the anti-biotics are working!!
I will update you all then!!

Much love--TashaK!

*****UPDATE***** I forgot to mention..They scheduled my C-section for June 1st 2011!!

I have been M.I.A!!

Hey Loves!!

Sooo sorry I have been gone...Morning sickness has hit me harder than a mack truck doing 80!!

Hopefully I am now back in the swing of things!! Once again I'm soo sorry!!! More updates coming tonight...


Friday, October 8, 2010

Sunday, October 3, 2010

My labor story...(Haeleigh)

My labor and delivery story...(Haeleigh)
My due date was September 4th 2007...that day came and went!! I was scheduled to be induced on September 11th 2007.
The morning of September 10th, I woke up, and just felt different....I have no idea why, I just did...I went to use the restroom, and in my undies, was my mucus plug..GROSS!! Then I went and sat on the couch....That's when I noticed my belly getting very hard...It wasn't hurting...just tightning up...I knew exactly what it was!! So I screamed to my mom(which lived with me and my husband at the time) "MOM, I'M IN LABOR!!!" She came rushing into the living room, asking me a million and one questions...I couldn't answer any of her questions...I just KNEW I was in labor...So as we are sitting there my cat, Midnite, was all over me, would not leave me alone...(I think secretly he knew something was up)...So I sit there feeling my belly harden...and it starting getting uncomfortable...not hurting, just pressure...I finally told my mom, lets go the the hospital....
We get to the hospital(which is 45 mins from my house)...And they check me..I am 2 centimeters dialated, 50% effaced!! YIPPIE!! I was for sure, in labor!! So they send me home and tell me to come back when they got to be 5 mins apart...I DID not want to go home!! I just knew as soon as we got home, I would have to turn around and come back...I just knew it...
So my dad suggested, we get something to eat and just wait it out....So we went to Danver's and ate lunch....My contractions were getting REALLY bad at this point...about 8 mins apart..I could not eat anything...I WAS HURTING!!!
My husband was working in the same town that the hospital was in...He does construction...Well, it started to rain...which was awesome, because I knew he would be headed home...I knew we would now HAVE to go home to pick him up..(we only had 1 vehicle at the time, and I was in it...he rode to work with his dad)...So we all get to my house at the same time...I am sitting on the couch, waiting on my husband to get out of the shower, so we can once again, go the the hospital...While he is in the shower, my dad suggests that we go for a walk...I agreed..
We get about 100 feet down my driveway, and I am frozen in pain...All I can do is squat, hold my daddy's hand, and concentrate on a line of ants marching across the driveway...It was all I could look at to get my mind off of the pain...By this time, William is out of the shower and ready!! So off to the hospital we went...the last time, being a family of two!!
I get admitted into the hospital, they check me, I am 5 cm, 100% effaced...As soon as I got into the bed, I went to sleep (I sleep when I am in pain..weird I know..) So next thing I know, I am being awoke by the nurse telling me she was going to give me some Stadol(spelling?), She said it was for pain..So I agree...As soon as she squirted it into my IV, I felt warm and tingily..I was awesome...I fall asleep once again...
I woke up in sooo much pain...I was screaming for a epidural...So I finally get it!!! YES!! And of course...I'm off to sleep...AGAIN!!
Sometime after this...The doctor came in a broke my water (I don't remember any of this)...there was meconium in my fluid..Which is not not good!! She had a bowel movement inside of me, when she is born, they have to make sure to suck all of it out, before she takes her first breath...So they call the NICU team, and get them prepared for when we deliver..
Around 12:30pm on September 11th (24 hours in labor) I awake, from my sleep..In so much pain I can't even breathe...The nurses come running in asking me what kind of pain...Since I had a epidural, they thought it was pressure...NO! It was my contractions...My epidural was NOT working!! They kept trying to up the dose, NOTHING...I seriously have never been in so much pain in my entire LIFE!! (the line got kinked in my back)
By this time I was 9 cm..Almost ready to push!! So finally I have the urge to push...
I push..........No progress...I am not doing anything...So the doctor gets the suction out, it wont even fit...So he says the chilling words....EMERGENCY C-SECTION.....
They wheel me into the operating room, have be sit on my butt( which I could NOT do, I was contracting every 2 mins...and needed to push) So they finally get the Spinal tap in...And they lay me down...And guess what?!?!?! I WENT TO SLEEP!!! OMG!! REALLY? My daughter is about to be born...and I go to sleep?!?!? Who does that??? **raises hand** I DO!!!
So I wake up to the sounds of the NICU suctioning out her mouth and lungs...the I hear it....HER CRY!! It was the most beautiful sound in the whole entire world...With all of the noise going on in that poerating room, all I heard was my baby girl, crying...
They wrapped her up, and handed her to my husband....As I look to my right, I see the two loves of my life...and I realize how lucky of a woman I am...I am the happiest woman in the world...I reach over and rub her little cheek...she is beautiful!! They finally take her to get cleaned up, while, I go to recovery and my husband goes to greet our family...
My angel, Haeleigh Grace, born September 11th 2007 at 1:39pm weighing 6lbs 7oz 19 1/2 inches long!!!
3 days later, Friday, September 14th 2007, we went home to start our life as a family of three!!!
Hope you all enjoyed!!! :)


Hello Lovies,

              Ok..this post really isn't going to have a purpose...Just random talking....

    So I am VERY frustrated that none of my jeans fit me anymore....I mean really?!?! I'm only 4 weeks!!! ugh...I guess I will be wearing sweats until I have time to go maternity jean shopping! I'm really really excited about that!! When I was pregnant with my daughter, I DID NOT own 1 maternity item...for one, I was 18 and could not stand the fact of wearing maternity clothes...We also didn't have that much money to buy "clothes" that I would only wear for 9 months...I just stuck with oversized pajama's and my hubby's t-shirts...Looking back at it now, I looked like a total SLOB!! lol

I have been asked alot, "Boy or Girl?"...And my response always is....I don't care what I have, as long as it's healthy and happy.....BUT...I would really LOVE to have a boy, since I have a girl...But I honestly don't care...If I had a girl, I would have just about everything I need(clothes, carseat etc)...

Alot of people have also asked if I am going to get a 4D ultrasound....I won't be able to get one...My insurance does not cover 4D ultrasounds...(stupid I know)...The only way I would be able to get one is if the doctor, just "so happens" to give me one without letting the insurace company know( which would be a cold day in Hell)...I really want one...SO BAD...We just don't have the money to fork out $500 for a ultrasound...I hope I get at least 2 regualar ultrasounds...With my daughter I only got 20 weeks...:( I do have a VHS tape of her ultrasound though...I love watching it...Thinking about getting a VHS-DVD burner and transfer it to a DVD..

Another thing...I am soooooo emotional....It's insane!!! Me and my hubbs were watching "The Blind Side" last night( which is my favorite movie ever, mostly b/c we live 10 mins from and I was crying every 2 seconds!!! The actor who played Michael Oher just had the saddest looks on his face...It was heartbreaking...I should of known I would cry like a baby...I did when I first seen it...and I wasn't preggo then!!! lol Also, My daughter can say something and it sounds soo cute, I start tearing up!! lol My husband keeps saying" OMG you're soo pregnant Tasha.." LOL

My husband has been such a HUGE help latley!! He is currently washing dishes for me(I didn't even have to ask!!) He knows at the end of the day I am completley exhausted, dealing with Haeleigh and being tired for no reason...I love him so much, I have no idea what I would ever do without him...He is my best friend and my soulmate!! Yeah, sure, he has his flaws, but who doesn't?? I love the fact that he is not "perfect". He is a GREAT daddy and a WONDERFUL husband and friend...People critisize us for only knowing each other 10 months before we got married...But I knew he was "the one"...I was 18 he was 22...People find that hard to believe that people our age could know what love is...but I definatley know what it is...I LOVE YOU WILLIAM!! :)

Ok..So I know I have completley bored you guys to death...sorry :( I am just in a very very talkative

    I will talk to you all later....Have a great day loves!!

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Pregnancy Update: 4 weeks

Hey loves!!

So today I am 4 weeks 3 days pregnant...I went to the doctor Thursday to confirm..and YES I am indeed pregnant!! My Iron was good and blood pressure was a little high, but nothing to be concerned with yet(it was probably high cause I have a MEAN 3 year old!! lol) 
So far I don't have that many symptoms... breast tenderness has gone down ALOT!! No morning sickness(yet),  Burping ALOT. 

Also, my abdomen is really swollen, none of my pants fit me anymore...I haven't gained any weight....I read on a website that SOME women during their 2nd pregnancy that they swell and start to show way before they did with their 1st, this being because your uterus is already stretched and its getting prepared for the growing...I'm thinking that is what's going on with me...(or either I'm pregnant with like 10 But my belly just feels kinda feels like a water I mean yes, it could be water retention, bloating, expanding uterus...or ALL 3!! 

I go for my 1st prenatal appointment on November 5th!! I will be 9 weeks 2 days!! Hopefully I will get to see our peanut...I really hope they do a ultrasound!! Please pray that everything will go okay!

I will be posting pictures every week of my belly!! They will be separate posts titled the week it is!! 

Wednesday, September 29, 2010


Ok!! It's official!!!

It's not just a faint line anymore!!! AF was due today!! Took a HPT and the line showed up within 3 seconds!!!

Going to the doctor tomorrow, to get it confirmed!! :D

Saturday, September 25, 2010

BIG news!!!

Guess What?!?!?!

I am pregnant!!!!!!
This pic was taken 10dpo 9:30 am....Very faint positive!!!

I am super super happy and excited!!! :)

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Ok..I took a HPT this morning, and this is my result......

I'm not sure what to make of it....I am still 8dpo, still really early...I will take one in 2 days....


Wednesday, September 22, 2010

TTC Blog #2

Hey lovies!!

Ok so I am 7dpo...Getting really anxious...I honestly don't think I am pregnant..I'm just waiting on AF to show up...Should be here the 29th..BUT if she doesn't show..well then...HPT for me!!! So I don't really feel pregnant...the only thing really out of the ordinary is I have been feeling these little cramps/twinges in my lower abdomen, which I have never felt before..and another thing is I have had increased CM..I dont ever remember this either, but then again, this is our first month ttc. I'm analyzing everything more closely now..all of this could be in my head...who knows...

So do you guys want to hear something funny?!?!
Today, I am sitting on the couch watching the news, and my 3 year old daughter comes and stand right in front of me and says "mommy boy in belly?" I was floored!! I was like what?!?! She never said it again, but I just thought that was really funny...My husband says he will flip out if I AM pregnant and it IS a boy...bahaha.
Kids say the craziest things huh?

I have been feeling good lately, a little stressed... The main reason why I am stressing is trying to find my daughter a school..So we live in a school district where the schools are rated 1 out of 10(suucckkss) My husband and I both went to this school, and we would live in a cardboard box before sending her to that school, but the school district right next to ours is rated 10 out of 10...It is an amazing school!! Everyhting we want..The problem is, we cant send her to that school district unless we MOVE to that district...ughh..soo stressful!!

Anyway, I will finish this up in a bit, got to go make some supper :) ttyl!!

Tuesday, September 21, 2010


So here are my symptoms as of today...

  • 1dpo(9/16)-Really sore ovaries?(feels like I had sex 10 times that Hurts in lower abdomen everytime I move...
  • 2dpo(9/17)-Soreness is gone, headache, very bloated feeling.
  • 3dpo(9/18)-Major bloating, heavy feeling, headache, feeling small cramp like pains in lower abdomen.
  • 4dpo(9/19)-Waking in middle of night to use the restroom(very very unusual) feeling small twinges/cramps in lower abdomen(doesn't hurt, just annoying) moody, headache, tired, eating all of my food(rare) runny nose, thinking Im getting sick.
  • 5dpo(9/20)-Feeling wet "down there" (watery CM?) tired more than usual(could sleep all day), cramp like pains continue, still thinks I'm getting sick, sore throat, runny/stuffy nose.
  • 6dpo(9/21)-still feeling wet "down there" (thick, yellowish clear CM), cramp/poke like pains in lower abdomen, super tires, moody, pains on right side of lower back, slight headache, right bb slightly sore(daughter pressed in it, around nipple area, and "OUCH!!", not feeling sick at all today...BFN(I'm a pee on a stick-a-holic...) lol
  • 7dpo(9/22)-As of right now, my only symptom is a increase in CM...
Will keep updating, every day...:)

Thursday, September 16, 2010

This is my daughter, Haeleigh, with my best friends baby boy!! She wanted to help do everything!! I think she will make a GREAT big sister :))
the 2nd pic, she was comforting him, gave him his pacifier, and a stuffed animal cause he was crying!! How cute?!?!

Update! 9/16/10

Hey dolls!!!
   Okay, so as of today, I am 1dpo. Sooo very excited!! We are going to "Baby Dance" again today(just in case I ovulated late)! So by the 26th I should be able to take a HPT and hopefully get a BIG FAT POSITIVE!!! I have been taking prenatal vitamins for about 2-3 weeks now. As I said on one of my earlier posts, this is our 1st month ttc, I have a feeling it's not going to happen this month, but who knows, we shall wait till the 29(when AF is expected)  If I'm not pregnant, I will be bummed out, but hey, there is always next month!!! :))

I have been feeling some light cramping today, I don't know what this is from....It feels like it's my ovaries hurting. Who knows what it is...I haven't felt this recently, so I'm thinking it has something to do with ovulation?!?! Or maybe it's just my mind playing tricks on me, since I want this so badly...

We have been hinting around at Haeleigh about having a little brother or sister...She doesn't seem to She has said that she wants a baby sister, but I seriously doubt She just turned 3 September 11th(Saturday)...So I believe she is at that stage, where everything you ask her is  "no"..go I have to take her to her 3 year checkup tomorrow, that should be fun, blood work, urine samples, eye tests....yay..She has a bad bad fear of doctors soon as we walk in the door, she knows whats going on, and she gets really anxious and nervous...She has been this way since she was a baby...So I will update you on Haeleigh's health and results of her checkup!! 

Talk to you all later!!!
 **Sending Baby Dust Your Way***


Wednesday, September 15, 2010

My Ovulation Tracker :)

Click on the picture to see my detailed tracker :)
Comment me if you have any questions! <3

Sunday, September 5, 2010

What's in my Diaper Bag??(3 year old)

 Here are a list of items I keep in my diaper bag!!

  • Extra Clothes-Shirt,Pants/Shorts,Underwear,Socks...etc
  • Pull Ups(Just in case)
  • Baby Wipes
  • Snacks-Crackers,Yogurt Melts...etc
  • Medication-Allergy,Anti-itch cream..etc (you never know when she will get stung,bit..etc)
  • Bug Repellent Wipes(LOVE THESE)
  • Sippy Cup and 2 extra juice boxes
  • Comfort item-Blanket, Favorite stuffed our case, it's her "puppy"(stuffed white tiger)
  • 2 plastic bags(just in case she has a potty accident,i can store the clothes so they won't soil anything)
                  And that's about it...I know I probably left something out...but I'll make a note on this post if I do.

                                                            Until Next Time,
                                                                 Tasha K. :)

Friday, September 3, 2010

Here is a couple of pics of my beautiful family!! Hope you enjoy!!!

                                                      My beautiful Haeleigh Grace :)

                                                      Her "Kissy Face" How cute??!!??

                                                        The Hubby and I <3

Haeleigh Grace and I!! 

                                                      Hubby and I again!! I love him <3

                                                     Haeleigh Grace and I again!! :))

                                             My baby and I!! She is such a mommy's girl!!!

                                             Haeleigh and I again :)

                                            My husband, William, and Haeleigh Grace <3

                                  I hope you all enjoy these pictures!!
                                            GOD BLESS,
                                               Tasha K

Blog #1 TTC (Sept)

September UPDATE!!


I am in CD* 3....I checked many many (like 12) ovulation calendars and they are all saying I "should" ovulate on/around the 15th.! I have been thinking about buying a OPK*..but haven't decided if I am going to or not, I might just try it this way, this month, if it doesn't take, then in October I will invest in OPK* I have very regular cycles, I know that the 1st of the month I am going to start, so that helps alot..:) So around the 29th of this month, I will take a HPT* and pray for a positive result...and if I get a negative, I will continue to keep testing until either I get a positive result or start my cycle.(HCG* doubles in your system everyday..this is what HPT* detect).I will be uploading pictures of this and some before pics, weight, measurements etc. But you better believe September 13-16 me and the hubbs will be BD*!!!

Please keep us in your prayers, and I will do the same for you!!!
Send lots and lots of baby dust our way!!!

*CD-Cycle Day*....*OPK-Ovulation Predictor Kit*....*HPT-Home Pregnancy Test*....*HCG-Human Chorionic Gonadotropin-The hormone emitted by a human placenta, is what pregnancy test measure.*BD-Baby Dancing(also known as sex ;) )*

A Introduction!

Hey everyone!!
Well first thing first, let me introduce myself...:) My name is Latasha Nichole Kirksey, I am 21 years old (22 in November), I am married to the most wonderful man,William, we wed on December 1st 2006. We are soul mates.. He is the most caring, goofy, romantic, the most wonderful man I have ever met! I love him so much, I can't even put it into words!! So on to the bio..:) On January 5th 2007(My husbands birthday) I found out that I was pregnant(awesome birthday present huh?) We were not TTC, but we weren't preventing it either..On September 10th 2007 I went into labor(9 days overdue)....25 hours later, I was 10cm dialated when my epidural wears off (the line got kinked in my back) and I was in PAIN..I seriously thought I was going to rip my husbands thumb off!! So while I have the urge to push, I get told that my OB has left the hospital...and at this point I am freaking out...(oh I forgot to mention, when they broke my water, there was meconium, which means my baby had a bowel movement inside the womb)...The Neonatal team was in the room explaining to me what that meant and that I would not get to hold my baby once she is I immediatley  assume the worst...My doctor FINALLY gets in the room, and I start to push, by this time, I am so exhausted that I am not making any progress with pushing, so they get the suction out, I ended up having a emergency c-section due to my daughters heart rate dropping from 152 to 67...My beautiful daughter was born September 11th 2007 at 1:39 pm weighing 6lbs 7oz and 19 1/2 inches long! She was perfectly healthy!! 

Fast Foward 3years, and here we are!! She will be 3 in 8 days!! Time had flew by!! It seems like just yesterday I was in labor...:'( it makes me sad to think she isn't my baby anymore, but so happy when I see her develop into her own little person, with her own personality...She is my life and my world...I never thought I could love someone soo much!! Even now, 3 years later, I still can't fathom that I made her, she lived inside of me, I kept her alive for 9 months...It truly is a miracle...

And that is why we want baby #2!!!
This is our first month TTC, so please send baby dust our way!!!

                            Until next time,
                              Tasha K